I feel empty. I don’t know who I am, what my passions are, what I am good at.
Crap. I’m suffering from some kind of identity crisis.

I’m really confused as to what I really enjoy doing in life.
And I’m still searching for something that I’m good at.

To be good at something, you need perfection. But perfecting something is never my niche.

Coming back for holidays from Singapore really puts a thousand questions in my head.

I wonder what the hell I am doing in Singapore going through junior college for 2 years slugging out for A-levels. It’s almost similar to doing Form 6, but with co-curricular activities and Physical Education thrown in.

As I hang out with my friends from primary and secondary school, I see many of them driving around in their brand new cars, going college with their own clothes. I compare myself and see myself going school (junior college is like school k!) in uniform without any driving license yet.

I went to Singapore initially with a clear goal in mind – to ace A-levels and get into an established university to do Electronics Engineering.

Then I started studies and found out I pretty much suck in calculations. Physics and Maths is not ‘my thing’ as I found out later in tests….But here I am going through junior college doing Physics, Chemistry, Maths, Economics and General Paper.

Sometimes, I ask myself what the heck I am doing in Science stream. I am not really a Science kind of guy….I’m more inclined towards Business….But then momma and uncle always advise to do some technical subject first before getting my MBA….Crap, I’m confused. I am seriously considering doing Computer Science now or studying Economics in university later….I shall ponder over it in the next few months…..

Argh…education in Singapore isn’t really fun. I thought Malaysia had a really rigid, regimented, exam-oriented education system and going to Singapore will be a fresh change. But I’m wrong. So damn wrong. It’s the total opposite that is happening. Everything in Singapore is about acing the exams. And I’m so damn sick of exams. Hate it.

Ok, some random ramblings over here….The end..